Do you ever have this nagging feeling that you’re waiting for your life to really begin? That one day an external force will create opportunities in your life and then you will have handed to you the keys to living your best life?
I still feel this way. I still have a void deep within me. And I have one of the most privileged and wonderful lives I could imagine! I have a loving husband, two kids who we adore, a cozy home, supportive friends and family, a life with no war or violence, and all my needs met.
As I get older, it seems to me that contentment is a state of the heart, and not your life circumstances. In this season of being a stay at home mom to little people, I have the privilege of living slower days where I can percolate on these bigger questions. But when I worked an office job for years, I felt my soul get quiet, and my gut feelings suppress inside myself. I found myself looking to external sources for guidance and direction instead of just listening to myself and what I felt God speaking.
It’s vulnerable to share these thoughts, but I want to get better at thinking out loud. I’d love to know your thoughts on this as well in the comments! I’m on a journey of asking the harder questions in life and seeking out true, deep rooted contentment. This is vulnerable for me to share! It means the world to me that you have even read this far and are following along.